Wendy Jans

So this is my new website. Being that I am a website developer, I know that I have no excuse for stagnating on one web design (even tho the other one is barely a year old), I get bored easily. My name means “wanderer” and it’s true. I’m a wanderer at heart. Even my livingroom falls victim to constantly being rearranged.

Never has this been more apparent than lately. I have been surprisingly busy with web work, which is great. I love it. I love the creative graphic work and I love coding and learning new things constantly. But trying to focus on that sit-down, cerebral task, when my music is always lingering in the back of my mind… is a challenge. With music, there’s no frantic client on the phone …there’s nobody tapping me on the shoulder warning me of my quota… Fortunately, having shunned the cubicle for the better part of my working adult life, I am fairly self-motivated and have almost always worked independently. And of course, there are those negative, crushing voices that you can’t escape… warning you of failure, prepping you for defeat… these don’t help the creative process (can I get an Amen!)?

But this week, I’ve been listing it out, forcing my focus — my anxieties taking the form of action items on a tangible page. And I do them one by one until they’re done (no, they’re not even close to being done! But if you think about it, everyone’s lives are made up of many facets – different notes. Yes – we all are a conglomeration of different, often conflicting notes and sometimes you just have to play each note one at a time until the song is over and the next song can begin.